it's time for me to stop living in denial and face the facts that soon i will be going back to work full-time, and won't be able to be with J all-day, every-day...
i didn't really think i would have as hard a time processing this as i'm having. i mean, seriously, i thought if anyone would be having separation anxiety it would be him! but J has been a great baby, and i've really enjoyed watching him evolve daily into a little person with his own little personality. so it really makes me sad that my time with him is going to be drastically reduced. we're very fortunate that one of my good friends (C) will be watching him during the day for us. so i *know* he will be safe and in good hands, but it's still tough to think about.
so D suggested that i start taking him to C for a couple of hrs for the next couple of weeks to build up to leaving him when i go back to work full-time. when he 1st suggested it, i thought it was overkill, especially since we have been to her house a few times together the past few weeks for various reasons, and i will be working half-days for the first week or 2 before i start full-time. but after my mini anxiety attack yesterday, i think he's probably right. so C was kind enough to allow us to bring him by a couple of days next week, so that i can "practice" turning him over to someone else for a few hrs. i really thought i'd have no problem letting someone else "deal" with him....wrong! he's been my sidekick for almost 11 months, so i'm really going to miss him not being there! :(
any moms out there have any tips on how to soften the blow? or should i just carry a box of tissue with me that first week??