Thursday, May 30, 2013

Happy 3rd Birthday!

Dear Julius,

Today is your 3rd birthday. 3 years ago, I looked into your eyes for the first time. 3 year ago, my life changed drastically. 3 years ago, I was the happiest I had ever been in my life. Unbeknowst to me you were the missing piece of my puzzle.

It's so hard to live through a May 30th without you. This day, made special for you, should be celebrated by you. You should be here with us opening presents, eating too many sweets, and getting showered with love and affection.

I don't know why you aren't here with us. I don't know how I've survived this long without you. I don't know how I'm going to survive the rest of my life without you. But what I do know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, is that I love you today more than I ever thought I could. I miss you today more than I ever thought I could. And that will never change.

I try to keep today about happiness, because that is what you brought into our lives. I'm not sure if what I have planned today is something you would have liked to do. I always struggle to plan your special day because you are no longer here to celebrate. Please know that whatever we decide to do, be it big or low-key, is done with you at the center of our minds and hearts. And that will never change.

You are forever mine. I am forever yours. And that will never change.

Loving you always,
Mommy

15 comments:

Caroline said...

Xo. Wishing him a happy birthday and missing him always.

Angie said...

<3 Happy birthday Julius!

Lots of hugs to you.

Ashley said...

Happy birthday Julius!!!!

Thinking of you today and always Tiffany. <3

Mary Thompson said...

Happy birthday Julius! Lots of love to you, your momma, daddy and little sister!

Party of Three Heads said...

You are forever mind. I am forever yours. And that will never change. <------- SO true! Happy Birthday little Man!!

Maxie's Mommy said...

Sweet Julius. Happy Birthday baby. I don't know how you've made it this long either. I don't know how any of us do. I am thinking of this beautiful boy today. His gigantic smile lights up my soul whenever I look at his picture. Be kind to yourself today lovely Tiffany.

Mama Bear said...

Happy birthday dear Julius xoxo

Angie said...

Because I am Mother of the year material ;), we went through the Mcdonalds drive thru today and I got Luke a happy meal. His toy was a Julius the monkey metal tin with a notepad. How fitting this was for today.

B. Wilson @ Windy {City} Wilsons said...

It should be celebrated by him. He made this day special and while I wish he were here with everything in my being, the day is still special because he was here.

Happy Birthday, sweet Juju. You are still a light.

Natasha said...

Wishing Julius a Happy birthday and sending lots of love to you guys today xoxo

brigette said...

Xoxo happy birthday sweet julius!! I hope your day went just as planned big hugs mama!!

LauraJane said...

Beautiful words for your beautiful boy.

You are forever loved and missed baby Julius. So many of us love you and miss you so much!

Becky said...

Happy Birthday sweet Julius:) You are forever loved and missed.

rebecca said...

Beautifully said my friend. He was thought of often at our house yesterday as was your family.

Jessica said...

Much love to you and your family. Happy birthday Julius!

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