Wednesday, December 14, 2011

disassemble!

today is one of those days. 1 thing sets me off, and i spiral.
i miss my son. i wish he was here.
i hate grief. i feel defeated.
no matter what i do, he is still gone.
no matter how many times i get out of bed in the morning despite the urge not to, he is still gone.
grief wins over and over.
and i'm left here with this overwhelming urge to run around screaming "disassemble, disassemble!" at the top of my lungs like "number 5" from the movie "short circuit."
i wish i were a robot that could just be disassembled so that i didn't have to deal with this pain. but i can't become one.
grief wins yet again.

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and finally, i was asked by someone for the link to my guest post and memorial candle tutorial over at Small Bird Studio's 12 days of christmas with you in heaven series. i'm not sure why i didn't post it before. silly me! if you missed it that day, you can find the actual post here.

i know this post is all over the place, and i'm sorry. it's how i feel today - all over the place.. :(

7 comments:

Jenn and Casey said...

Big big hugs. I am so sorry.

crystal said...

Just know that I am thinking of you today and praying for you!!! Sending (((HUGS))) your way!!!

Jenny said...

youve been on my mind all day (hugs)

Franchesca said...

So sorry Tiffany, I hate days like that! I hate the grief can be so powerful. I hope today is better. Always carrying your sweet JuJu in my heart.

xoxox

amourningmom said...

I am sorry that your day was such a spiral. I hope some day we will all win over grief. Take care and thinking of you.

Deanna said...

BIG BIG hugs sent your way Tiffany :( I've been thinking about Julius so much these past few days.

Natasha said...

So sorry friend.....it never gets easier when it hits you like that. I hope that today is better for you.

Always thinking of little Juju and keeping you guys in my prayers ♥ ♥ ♥

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