This is My Life Now...

never in a million years would i have thought that i would be a bereaved parent. almost 2 weeks ago i lost my precious little boy - the one i planned for, and prayed for - to SIDS. today also would have been the due date of my friend, rebecca's, little girl, Lily. but unfortunately, we both have had to endure this fate of losing our babies. i would always comment to rebecca about how much we had in common. i just never thought that this would be another thing we would have in common.

i've had a lot more bad days than good recently. i'm trying to muddle my way through the darkness, and find the light once again. tonight i will be attending a griefshare support group meeting. i'm actually excited to go, and i'm hopeful that this will help me take a step towards finding my new "normal". unfortunately, this is my life now - the life of a parent that has lost a child.

in honor and memory of both Julius Luciano, and Lillian Grace, i'd like to share this poem with you:

WE REMEMBER THEM.

At the rising of the sun and at its going down
We remember them.

At the blowing of the wind and in the chill of winter
We remember them.

At the opening of the buds and in the rebirth of spring
We remember them.

At the blueness of the skies and in the warmth of summer
We remember them.

At the rustling of the leaves and in the beauty of autumn
We remember them.

At the beginning of the year and when it ends
We remember them.

As long as we live, they too will live, for they are now a part of us as
We remember them.

When we are weary and in need of strength
We remember them.

When we are lost and sick at heart
We remember them.

When we have joy we crave to share
We remember them.

When we have decisions that are difficult to make
We remember them.

When we have achievements that are based on theirs
We remember them.

As long as we live, they too will live, for they are now a part of us as
We remember them.