Saturday, February 12, 2011

4 month ago...


Dear Juju,

Today is your 4 month angelversary. You have been away from me for 4 whole months. This pain really hasn't gotten any easier to bear. I still have my breakdowns. I still have moments where I'm paralyzed with grief. Sometimes I can only concentrate on your absence and the weight of your absence. I try daily to incorporate my old life into my new life of grieving you.

Baby, I wonder what you would look like as a 8.5 month old. How long would your frohawk be? How much would you weigh? Would you be eating solids? All I can do is wonder. You will forever be 4.5 months old to me. I miss and love you more than words can ever say.

-Mommy

9 comments:

Natasha said...

Thinking of you and praying for you girly. I love the thought of Juju and his frohawk!!! ♥Juju♥

((hugs))

sarah said...

Thinking of you and Juju and sending you love today. 4 months - it's such a short time and such an endless amount of time, all at the same time.

I love all the pics you've been sharing of Julius. What a gorgeous boy, such a beautiful smile.

xo

MrsH said...

I smiled about the frohawk! his hair looks so soft in the pictures. His smile is so sweet. 4 months is not that long, but it feels like a lifetime. Hugs

Deanna said...

thinking of you, Tiffany!

Tiffany said...

I can't get over Juju's smile. It is one of the best smiles I have ever seen. It ALWAYS makes me smile. I bet he would have a very stylin' frohawk. Thinking of you!

BBH said...

((HUGS)) Thinking of you guys.

Caroline said...

Thinking of you so much. Always remembering your Juju.
{{{HUGS}}}

rebecca said...

His smile is so beautiful. I'm so sorry:( Thinking of you guys and sending love ((hugs))

Mary said...

BIg Hugs to you. Juju was such a handsome little man! Julius and Gage could have had matching mohawks. I am so sorry we have to miss our babies...our beautiful boys. Love, Mary

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