Thursday, February 10, 2011

missing him more and more each day...

i remember this pic like it was yesterday. he had just made his way into the world. we all got settled on the bed, and my midwives cleaned him off, swaddled him {which he never liked}, and placed him in my arms. it was an amazing feeling, and i remember just staring at him for the longest time in disbelief. it really didn't click until i had him in my arms. i mean, i knew i was pregnant {i had the tests to prove it}, and i felt someone in my tummy, but it wasn't until i saw his face that it made everything "real." yep, he was real, and he is mine. and though he's no longer here with us. the love still remains...

the very 1st pic my love ever took! 










Juju, 
we miss and love you so very much. valentine's day is coming up, and we wish you were here to celebrate it with us. daddy and i weren't really big into that holiday anyway, but you would have changed that. you already changed us so much. your four month angelversary is coming up, please stay extra close to us this next week. we need your light and your strength. 
loving you always and forever, 
mommy

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12 comments:

Tiffany said...

what a precious photo <3

Tanashia said...

I think of you often. Thanks for sharing. I recently shared your blog with a friend who has found strength in your words. Thank you. Tanashia

brigette said...

Such a cute picture! Much love

Trena said...

((hugs)) ♥ Thank you for sharing Juju with us.

Sending lots of love and prayers. ♥

Angie said...

Aw, I love the expression on his face in that one.

Rachel said...

Sweet boy! Thinking of you!

Megan said...

Such a beautiful boy... and yes Tiff, our love for him remains. <3

Susan said...

Yes - I think the missing gets worse in a way. At first I was just concentrating on breathing, getting through the minutes and days. Then it hits you that you are never, ever going to see them again. It's hard. You don't let your children go though - you still love them just as much, irrespective of whether they are alive or dead. xx

rebecca said...

I remember that picture so well! Sending so much love and hope that you find the strength you need as the 4 month milestone of his death approaches. He is remembered and loved by so many people all over this world ((hugs))

Mary said...

I love his expression...he certainly doesn't look like he enjoys being swaddled. Thank you for sharing this photo!

Lindsay said...

Beautiful boy...

Tasha said...

This will always be one of my favorite pics. I remember you sharing it for the first time.

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