today marks the 3 week mark since i've been without my baby boy. i'm not really sure how i made it this far, but i did. after my friend, rebecca, lost her baby girl, Lily, she submitted Lily's story to the blog Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope. this was the first time i had ever heard of, or read this blog. i thought then that it was such a great blog, and such a great place for women who had experienced baby loss to honor their babies and tell their stories. never did i imagine that i would one day join them.
After the initial shock of what had happened to our baby boy had passed, i gathered up some strength, and i wrote up Julius' story and sent it in to be included on the blog. his story was posted yesterday - just in time to honor my love on the 3 week mark of his passing. i wish so much that i (or any one, for that matter) didn't have to count time in "days/weeks/months/years since i lost my baby". this is a hell that i wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. but i am thankful to Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope for giving me one more way to honor, and remember my Julius.