Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Remembering Juju on the 3 week anniversary...

today marks the 3 week mark since i've been without my baby boy. i'm not really sure how i made it this far, but i did. after my friend, rebecca, lost her baby girl, Lily, she submitted Lily's story to the blog Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope. this was the first time i had ever heard of, or read this blog. i thought then that it was such a great blog, and such a great place for women who had experienced baby loss to honor their babies and tell their stories. never did i imagine that i would one day join them.

After the initial shock of what had happened to our baby boy had passed, i gathered up some strength, and i wrote up Julius' story and sent it in to be included on the blog. his story was posted yesterday - just in time to honor my love on the 3 week mark of his passing. i wish so much that i (or any one, for that matter) didn't have to count time in "days/weeks/months/years since i lost my baby". this is a hell that i wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. but i am thankful to Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope for giving me one more way to honor, and remember my Julius.

9 comments:

Rachel said...

Your story was beautiful, Tiffany! I miss him so much...and all of his adorable little faces. He will forever be etched in my heart...and so will you. Many, many prayers for you and your husband!

Kristin said...

You wrote his story so beautifully and have touched so many people's hearts along the way. xo

Lisa said...

Beautiful story honoring his life, I am so sorry for all you are enduring. I pray that God gets you and Dennis through this grief; and lifts that weight off your chest. Juju will NEVER be forgotten.

Ninefirefly said...

I'm so sorry for what you have been through. My heart breaks for you and I hug my kid a little tighter each night. I wish you strength in the days, weeks, months to come.

K said...

I read your story of FoL and I wanted to say I'm so, so sorry for you. I lost my baby when I was 23 weeks pregnant so I have some idea of the devastation you're suffering through. It makes me want to cry thinking about the pain you're in. You seem to have strength in you and I wish you nothing but better days ahead.

New Blogger said...

I literally stumbled upon you blog. When ever I start reading a new blog I try to start from the beginning and work to the present. You and I were pregnant at the same time. My son was born on 4.15.10, and I am happy to say that he is a healthy, happy, little boy. The reason that I kept reading your blog is because your pregnancy experiences and parenting thoughts were much the same as my own. When I saw your beautiful little boy he reminds me of mine who is also bi-racial. My heart is broken for you, I am literally in tears as I write this, and I want you to know that I am praying for you and your husband. You do not know me, and this is actually the first time I have ever commented on a blog, but I wanted you to know that you, your husband, and your BEAUTIFUL baby boy touched the heart of a stranger today, and with that a stranger prayed for you, and I will continue to do so.

Wendy said...

First of all, I am so sorry for your loss! My heart breaks to think of the emptiness that you must feel at home, and everywhere you go. We lost our son due to prematurity after 13 days. The pain never goes away but we find hope in Jesus and know we will see him again some day.
Second, tonight was my first visit to FOL. Your story was first and I was surprised to see HSV, AL. I work in HSV! Small world. If I can ever help in ANY way, please let me know. Hugs~~ (wendybpalmer@yahoo.com)

lis said...

i just wanted to let you and your husband know that i have been thinking of you both and your little man Julius. he is such a gorgeous baby and he will always, always be with both of you. you are both still a mommy and a daddy. this side of it is so hard. just know that you have so much support around you if you need it. and remember that men and women grieve differently. i wish someone had told me that in the beginning. it would have made a world of difference. sending hugs and peace to you guys.
xoxo
lis

Patty said...

I'm so sorry that you had to join this world of infant loss. My daughter was stillborn last October right before the holidays. We still have no kids and it's another dreadful holiday season. I'll be thinking of you as we all grieve together; your grief is still fresh... Julius is so adorable...

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